Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Because this is how I feel right now...

Take me back to the time
When I was maybe eight or nine
And I believed
When Jesus walked on waters blue
And if He helped me, I could too
If I believed

Before rationale, analysis and systematic thinking
Robbed me of a sweet simplicity
When wonders and when mysteries
Were far less often silly dreams
And childhood fantasies

Help me believe
'Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grownup skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe

When mustard seeds made mountains move
A burning bush that spoke for You was good enough
When manna fell from heavens high
Just because You told the sky to open up

Am I too wise to recognise that everything uncertain
Is certainly a possibility?
When logic fails my reasoning
And science crushes underneath
The weight of all that is unseen

Help me believe
'Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grownup skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe

When someone else's education
Plays upon my reservations
I'm the first to cave, I'm the first to bleed

If I abandon all that seeks
To make my faith informed and chic
Could You, would You show Yourself to me?

Help me believe
'Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grownup skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Random...

Best, Last, Today, Tomorrow, Favorite, Currently.

Best...
[1.] Male friend: Josh
[2.] Female friend: My Mom...but there are several others in the running. :)
[3.] Cousin: Lori.
[4.] Vacation: Cayman until it was cut short...
[5.] Time of Day: Evening
[6.] Day of the week: Friday!
[7.] Memory: oh my word...as of late it is the entire experience Saturday night at the haunted corn maze...definitely climbing the charts

Last...
[1.] Person you saw: sarah
[2.] Talked to on the phone: my dad
[3.] Text: Josh
[4.] Imed: Zach
[5.] Talk to over myspace: who knows...
[6.] To hug you: don't remember...probably Lauren
[7.] To kiss: really?

Today...
[1.] What are you doing now?: procrastinating
[2.] What are you wearing right now? striped pj pants, t-shirt, zippy shirt
[3.] Better than yesterday? i suppose

Tomorrow...
[1.] Is: wednesday
[2.] Got any plans: class.chapel.class.class.class.heather dinner. homework.
[3.] Dislikes about tomorrow: there are four classes and chapel...

Favorite...
[1.] Number: 23
[2.] Food: guacamole and chips
[3.] Color: green, purple
[4.] Season: fall.
[5.] Candy: dark chocolate
[6.] Flower: lilys
[7.] Scent: aqua di gio

Currently...
[1.] Missing: summer...
[2.] Mood: girly
[3.] Wanting: nah, not here.

Random...
Do you know anyone named David? a few, yes.

Ever kissed anyone with the name starting with a J? not yet.

Where is your cell phone? beside me

Say you were given a drug test right now. Would you pass or fail?
pass with flying colors

Are you taller than 5'6“? 5'9''

Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs? not to buy drugs...

Last restaurant you went to? cracker barrel.

What is the weather like today? colder.

What did you do yesterday? classes, worked, dinner, homework, gospel choir, hung out, homework...

How many hours did you sleep for last night? around 6 ish

If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? of course

Have you cried today? maybe.

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? i suppose it's possible.

Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? not always.

What is the color of your bedsheets? Cream

Are you photogenic? not generally...

Do you have a tattoo? nope

Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle? of course.

What were you doing at 2am last night? going to sleep.

Favorite Disney movie? cinderella!

What is the wallpaper on your cellphone? NYC from the Empire State Building at night

Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? nope.

Last beverage you had? Non-fat Sugar-free Mocha with Raspberry ;)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Interesting Article from J.K. Rowling...

Thought she had some interesting thoughts about the emphasis we, yes, myself included, put on appearance. Check it out and gain a little confidence. :)

For Girls Only, Probably...
-J.K. Rowling

Being thin. Probably not a subject that you ever expected to read about on this website, but my recent trip to London got me thinking...

It started in the car on the way to Leavesden film studios. I whiled away part of the journey reading a magazine that featured several glossy photographs of a very young woman who is either seriously ill or suffering from an eating disorder (which is, of course, the same thing); anyway, there is no other explanation for the shape of her body. She can talk about eating absolutely loads, being terribly busy and having the world's fastest metabolism until her tongue drops off (hooray! Another couple of ounces gone!), but her concave stomach, protruding ribs and stick-like arms tell a different story. This girl needs help, but, the world being what it is, they're sticking her on magazine covers instead. All this passed through my mind as I read the interview, then I threw the horrible thing aside.

But blow me down if the subject of girls and thinness didn't crop up shortly after I got out of the car. I was talking to one of the actors and, somehow or other, we got onto the subject of a girl he knows (not any of the Potter actresses – somebody from his life beyond the films) who had been dubbed 'fat' by certain charming classmates. (Could they possibly be jealous that she knows the boy in question? Surely not!)

'But,' said the actor, in honest perplexity, 'she is really not fat.'

'"Fat" is usually the first insult a girl throws at another girl when she wants to hurt her,' I said; I could remember it happening when I was at school, and witnessing it among the teenagers I used to teach. Nevertheless, I could see that to him, a well-adjusted male, it was utterly bizarre behaviour, like yelling 'thicko!' at Stephen Hawking.

His bemusement at this everyday feature of female existence reminded me how strange and sick the 'fat' insult is. I mean, is 'fat' really the worst thing a human being can be? Is 'fat' worse than 'vindictive', 'jealous', 'shallow', 'vain', 'boring' or 'cruel'? Not to me; but then, you might retort, what do I know about the pressure to be skinny? I'm not in the business of being judged on my looks, what with being a writer and earning my living by using my brain...

I went to the British Book Awards that evening. After the award ceremony I bumped into a woman I hadn't seen for nearly three years. The first thing she said to me? 'You've lost a lot of weight since the last time I saw you!'

'Well,' I said, slightly nonplussed, 'the last time you saw me I'd just had a baby.'

What I felt like saying was, 'I've produced my third child and my sixth novel since I last saw you. Aren't either of those things more important, more interesting, than my size?' But no – my waist looked smaller! Forget the kid and the book: finally, something to celebrate!

So the issue of size and women was (ha, ha) weighing on my mind as I flew home to Edinburgh the next day. Once up in the air, I opened a newspaper and my eyes fell, immediately, on an article about the pop star Pink.

Her latest single, 'Stupid Girls', is the antidote-anthem for everything I had been thinking about women and thinness. 'Stupid Girls' satirises the talking toothpicks held up to girls as role models: those celebrities whose greatest achievement is un-chipped nail polish, whose only aspiration seems to be getting photographed in a different outfit nine times a day, whose only function in the world appears to be supporting the trade in overpriced handbags and rat-sized dogs.

Maybe all this seems funny, or trivial, but it's really not. It's about what girls want to be, what they're told they should be, and how they feel about who they are. I've got two daughters who will have to make their way in this skinny-obsessed world, and it worries me, because I don't want them to be empty-headed, self-obsessed, emaciated clones; I'd rather they were independent, interesting, idealistic, kind, opinionated, original, funny – a thousand things, before 'thin'. And frankly, I'd rather they didn't give a gust of stinking chihuahua flatulence whether the woman standing next to them has fleshier knees than they do. Let my girls be Hermiones, rather than Pansy Parkinsons. Let them never be Stupid Girls. Rant over.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

My Slogans

Patrice found this slogan generator...I'm up late so why not type some of my favs?

"We'll leave the Cami on for you."

"With A Name Like Cami, It Has To Be Good."

"Only Cami can prevent forest fires."

"It takes a tough man to make a tender Cami."

"Tough on dirt, gentle on Cami."

"A day without Cami is like a day without sunshine."

"Lipsmackin' Thirstquenchin' Acetastin' Motivatin' Goodbuzzin' Cooltalkin' Highwalkin' Fastlivin' Evergivin' Coolfizzin' Cami."

"I'm only here for the Cami."

"Leggo my Cami."

"Think Once, Think Twice, Think Cami."

"Every Kiss begins with Cami."

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets Cami."

"Got a Cami? You're in luck."

"Ain't no party like a Cami party."

okay....can anyone tell I'm procrastinating on my resume! off to more work...here's the site if you're looking for a laugh and a time waster :)

http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?word=cami

Monday, August 20, 2007

Dramatic Chipmunk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1Y73sPHKxw

I'm sure a lot of people have seen this already...but I just can't
stop laughing at it. :)

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Life...and I'm liking it

the summer has ended.
i am not longer boss.
i am no longer coordinator.
i am no longer living in new hall.
in three hours, i am no longer in the
states!
YAY!
two days in chicago with the lovely lauren wrapped up and i went on my EARLY connecting flight to Ft. Lauderdale where i sit now waiting for my cayman flight...
i really don't know the last time i went on vacation...just vacation...no definite plans....no working purpose...no awkward situation... just relaxation.

sometimes i just wonder why i am so incredibly, overwhelmingly, and inexplicably blessed. this idea i've tossed around since reading a book entitled "the ultimate blessing." it evaluates this idea of what it really looks like to be blessed. when we say "God bless america, what do we really mean?" do i feel blessed because i am going to the caribbean? am i blessed for leaving school without loans? ...because I have amazing friends? ...because of a supportive family? ...because i am fed regularly? ...because I can get up and walk on my own any time i want? what defines blessed?
what happens if this trend ends? if after college God decides to use me among those in poverty and he allows all the material things in my life to fall to the wayside. he certainly did it for Job. was Job still blessed? would I still feel blessed?
and maybe it's not that i even need to "feel" blessed, but rather just recognize that i am. at what point in stripping things away do i become "unblessed." and maybe it's at these points that i am to truly embrace James 1:2 "Consider it PURE joy, my dear brothers, when you face trials of many kinds." i know i continue to grasp further the meaning of this as life passes on and i wonder how it is that my understanding of it will continue to develop.

wow...there was some stream of consciousness...haha...enjoy :)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Why Not...

WRITE EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND DON’T CHANGE IT"

1. Your ex and you = are about 2,500 miles apart
2. I am listening to = Friends on TV
3. Maybe I should = go to bed…
4. I love = vanilla bean ice cream
5. Chocolate = better when it’s dark.
6. I don’t understand = boys.
7. I have lost my respect for= Tom Cruise.
8. I last ate = popcorn at the movie with Krista.
9.The meaning of my display name is = about climbing…
10. God = overwhelming and amazing.
11. Someday = a big bag of “I don’t know yets”
12. I will always remember = July 10, 2003
13. Love seems to = turn up where I don’t expect it.
14. I never ever want to lose = my parents.
15. My MySpace is = not used often…
16.Tomorrow I will = work and go to my orthodontist.
17. I get annoyed when = I can’t find motivation.
18. Parties = I go to IWU…
20. Simple kisses = I miss them. (where is 19?)
21. Today I = started off not so great, but then got a cute new hair cut!
22. I wish = people loved more naturally.

IS YOUR / ARE YOU...

01. is your hair wet?:
Nope…I just washed it for the third time today and straightened it.

02. is your cell phone right by you?:
both of them (work/personal)

03. do you miss someone?:
definitely…probably more than they know

04. are you wearing chap stick?:
Burt’s Bees…I love that stuff!

05. are you tired?:
uh huh

06. are you wearing pajamas?:
yes I am

08. are you mad?
nah

09. are you upset?:
nah

HAVE YOU...
01. Recently done something you regret?
…maybe…

02. ever stuck gum under a desk?:
ew…no!

03. ever kicked someone?:
yes…ask Katee Gerber…

04. ever tripped over your own feet?:
yeah, seem to more when I’m wearing flip flops at IWU for some reason

TODAY HAVE YOU...

01. have you cursed?:
I don’t think so…

02. have you gotten mad at someone?:
nope

Q: person who is on your mind right now?
joy

Q: do you have any siblings?
nope

Q: do you want children?
absolutely

Q: do you smile often?
I try to

Q: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
No

Q: do you like your handwriting?
Yeah, it’s alright I guess

Q: are your toenails painted?
always

Q: are you a friendly person?
I try to be… ask my staff ☺

Q: what color shirt are you wearing?
Blueish

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Oh Summer

I've been reflecting on this summer. What I've really gotten out of it. I think I have mixed emotions about it. I've enjoyed what I've done, but I don't really know what I've learned from it. It'll be nice for the resume, but I wonder how I've really grown from the experience. It has been so affirming though. Maybe that's it. Just realizing that the leadership tasks that seem way too hard are really ones I've already been equipped for, not by my own power, but nonetheless equipped.

The next two weeks will be the proof I guess...two big conferences back to back. Two big 70 ish hour weeks back to back. Funny how everyday last summer I worked 17 hour days and now a few 12 hour days seem like a lot. Anyway I could use a lot of prayer to be sure my mind remembers the million and a half things I have to do. I know it will be fine, but I'm just looking forward to it being over. I've been so blessed this summer and I can't wait for all that is ahead in the next year.

Okay, now I'm not sure if this is even making sense...I'm exhausted...later :)

Monday, July 2, 2007

I really like this site...

26 million people in the world suffering every day as a result of human trafficking. I can't even wrap my mind around what 26,000,000 people
would look like. I do know that I'm called to be a part of it's abolition.
Which doesn't make me feel special, but rather almost insignificant. I am
so entirely small. But if I stay in that rut I will be insignificant. For
now I will press on in the ways that I know how...

Take a look at the site below...it supports fair trade and a logical way of
stopping human trafficking in India. Plus, there are fun bags at a pretty
reasonable price! :)

http://www.ashaimports.com/index.html